| ♥ "So long as there's fish swimming in the sea, there will always be love between you and me" ♥
"As seen through the eyes of the author, these poetic conversations about child abuse show that the effects continue long after the act has been committed. They detail an in-depth look into the minds of two friends who discuss the destruction is causes, the hidden scars it leaves behind, and their personal journey of survival ultimately leading to triumph and victory."
"Peppered Love" is my second self-published book of poems based on the life of a soldier detailing how we held onto hope, never gave up and found a way out through a whole lot of soul searching, love, faith and, of course, forgiveness. It is dedicated to everyone with a struggle.
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The cost for Peppered Love is $6.99 plus $1.51 for shipping.
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Excerpts from "Peppered Love"
Tapestry
Is there a home that no one knows for all these wounds that never close Is there a shelter that's unspoken healing every part that's broken Is there somewhere we can find to keep us safe within our mind Is there a sun for you and me where we can make like tapestry
(Thoughts)
Healing is so difficult like laughter on the run When you're reaching for an answer helping you to stand Strong enough to part the clouds until you see the sun When you're grabbing for your life to hold it in your hand It's the greatest feeling you can come to know When you're fighting for protection caused by tragedy Capture it forever and do not ever let it go Then you're on a mission to let your heart be free
A friendship never fades, it sometimes changes shades.
When children laugh, our planet sings Dreams are always part of you When children learn, a school bell rings No one can take away When children dream, a river flows If you choose to let them go It does not matter where it goes You'll break in every way
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Please Note: Some of these poems may not be suitable for a young audience. Viewer discretion is advised.
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∞ Act 1
Him: Orange Her: White
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Tux and Gloves
Every second stands alone Every night when I’m at home Staring deep into the mirror Raging thoughts force me to quiver Gently brewing a concoction In my slow dance of dysfunction Putting on a tux and gloves Prepping for this evening’s loves Picking up my clientele On a shuttle into hell No sleep till tomorrow Always feeling sorrow Hiding my face in the shade Wiping off a dirty blade Exploding after all the pain Twisting like a candy cane Re-enacting all the time Sipping from a blood red wine Thirsty for another still Watching from a window sill
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Bed of Lies
Another one of those days You wake up in a haze Still weakened from its touch Dependent on that crutch You run to find a map But it’s a booby trap Dropping to an empty ground No one's there to hear the sound Lying in a bed of lies Then you open up your eyes How are you to survive today When you’ve lost all yesterday Will you ever get away From this game you love to play
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Act 2
Him: Orange Her: White
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Uncle Charly
Every morning when it rains Pulling on his rusty chains Revving up the silent gears In a dungeon with no ears Black-and-blue is crying dread Screaming monsters in his head Steaming like an angry bull Scratching scars beneath the skull Luck has left me in the end Giving in to his own friend Salivating down his shirt Licking buttons like dessert Playing with my little toy Whipping out his greatest joy Flying higher than a seagull This religion is illegal Fancy shawls around me draped Crawling on the knees I scraped Hiding all the telltale clues Sickness covered in tattoos All alone out in the wild Desecrating a small child Shooting all his barley It’s my Uncle Charly
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The Voice of All Kids
Be the voice of all kids Who don’t know where to go Be the voice of all kids Who can’t let it show
Be the voice of all kids Who don’t know where to turn Be the voice of all kids Who will die from the burn
Be the voice of all kids Who don’t see the light Be the voice of all kids Who can’t sleep at night
Be the voice of all kids Who don’t know what is true Be the voice of all kids Who hunger like you
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Act 3
Child: Orange Parent: White
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A Wounded Soldier
I am still a fighter Who is living in the night Even though you turned away From me without a fight
Midnight haunts me like a stranger Life has not been fair Disillusion takes control Because you were not there
Are you all that I deserve Can this be my fate Every time I’m happy I self-annihilate
Even though you’re far away There’s terror in my mind Feeling like a wounded soldier You had left behind
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Another Chance
Living has been such a burden I’m completely torn There’s been disappointment Since the day your heart was born
You are still in hiding You don’t want to come around Every time I think of us My heart falls to the ground
You have never left my mind I carry on our name I have come to a conclusion You are not to blame
Can I have another chance To show you I am true This is an apology My heart gives out to you
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Act 4
Him: Orange Her: White
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Lifeless Ruin
There is no one I am foolin’ But my heart, a lifeless ruin Boiling darkness with my strangers Burning pyramids from angels There's no text inside my books Hell is calling from my looks Faceless friends begin to dwell From my soul, a mindless shell Dancing on white four-leaf clovers There’s no pain outside my shoulders Paranoia’s screaming rage Like a lion in a cage Loathsomely I start to scheme Tragedy’s a painful wean Joyful laughter makes me cry Lonely death is coming by Down the hill I start to tumble No one’s watching as I crumble
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Spotlight of Charades
There’s a crazy dance inside you Bouncing like an angry ball Too much violence to your eardrums Brings destruction to your wall
Life is like a bleeding ulcer Penetrating like a stain Lunacy is clogged inside you Never swirling down the drain
Volume can be so consuming When your pitch is screaming loud Strong enough to raise the silence Of an echo in a crowd
Lost inside your lonely body Bordered up with barricades Stolen in a vacant lot Is your spotlight of charades
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Act 5
Him: Orange Her: White
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The Homeless
I remember being young And feeling very helpless It took years to understand All about the homeless
I would walk out in the street Too small to understand Seeing people on the corners Who could hardly stand
Many times I used to wonder What their life might hold But I could not understand Why they slept in the cold
They were living in my time That was never fun Now I understand the reasons What this life has done
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Come with Me
He can see the love behind your eyes Come with me, I’ll show you how to rise
He can feed you drippings from the moon Sweeter than a sugar-covered spoon
He can show you magic from the sky Teaching you a different way to fly
He has taught me everything I know Come with me, I’ll show you where to go
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Act 6
Him: Orange Her: White
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I Am Human
I’m no longer injured I never need to hide I was given many chances Love was on my side
I had been a person Who was always looking down Till I learned for every verb There is a matching noun
I destroyed myself I did not want to know this place Then I woke up naked Seeing death inside my face
When I made a change I found the greatest gift of all Learning I am human At the bottom of my soul
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The Final Meal
I remember hearing That all familiar sound It was lightning in the sky And chaos underground
We had been attacked It was brutal like a war Feeling like the arctic air Had almost reached the shore
You had dug a six-foot hole Were ready to jump in I had talked you out of it You held on by a string
When you added butter To the final meal of grits I had lit a bomb And threw it where the devil sits
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Act 7
Him: Orange Her: White
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I Am Free
It’s been hard for me to find Every thought within my mind Leading me to share my pain And the words I had to strain Craziness I did embrace It has brought me to this place Optimism is so great Something I appreciate Many times I go through struggles But I share so many snuggles Like the clouds high in the air They and I will stay up there I will try to live life well Roses have the greatest smell Colors helped my soul revive Helping me survive this life
I will try not to get burned I don’t fear what I have learned I have taken every course You have been my precious resource
I am interested in more I still want to go explore There has been room left for me I am here so you can see
Discovering has been my deed I love helping all who need Silence has been death for me Now I live so I am free
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Sweet Eternity
We can build a trillion castles Forming them to heart Making sweet eternity A unified new start
When the lights begin to darken Every bell will ring Capturing the future Watching angels start to sing
We will make it possible To wash away all sorrow Causing one to leave behind A horrible tomorrow
We can shape this planet It might take a while I know we can do it With a beautiful new smile
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